Head is getting clearer...

I've been spending a lot of time playing basketball and getting my mind correct.. When your down for a while you need to do these things.. Anyway I'm feeling good and tired lol. I've been spending a lot of te hanging out with Ms. E & she really makes things a little easier recovering. Well I'm going to study for chemistry now ( worst class ever). Thank you everyone for being there & reading my posts. It helps me & hopefully it helps you also.. God Bless & stay well! :)

Spoken

I was in church today.. The Pastor was speaking on Genesis and "First Things First". He believed Abram's (known as Abraham) father was actually suppose to be the Father of many nations and God was calling him to go to Canaan. So Abrahams father Terah packed up his sons, grandsons and daughter in law and set off.. 

         Now Terah and the family stopped in a place I believe he named in Haran after his dead son.. Terah has 3 sons and the first born died and his name was Haran.. Terah never left Haran and finished his journey.. He never got over his sons death or came to better terms with it so he stayed in the city of his pain and suffering. I think he ignored God's call on his life because he "couldn't" go forward any longer.

    Terah left to go to a land of promise but somehow lost his motivation throughout the move and fell into depression. He made Haran his grieving spot and there he died himself.. never ever making it to the land of promise because there was no hope, no motivation and he just laid in his tears.

  I don't usually examine or rethink sermons but it was just something about this one that I needed to think through.. the moral of this story doesn't even have to be from a spiritual viewpoint.

 Grief (and depression in general) are significant motivation killers. They kill our dreams and ultimately rob us of our lives. When we choose to settle in the place of our loss, depression, sadness or grief, we die there. How about we don't die there.. How about we get the help we need? It may seem so hard now.. but you can make it. 

I have 2 questions..

1) Are you in a Haran? 

2) If you are what can you do about it?

Depression Is..

Depression is when sleep is so much better than being awake.
Depression is when "just" becomes your least favorite word..
Depression is when you just lay around all day because you are too depressed to do anything
Depression is when you go to school and work and you are unmotivated to do anything..
Depression is when you wish you were lazy because you could actually do something about laziness
Depression is when you have no hope, no perspective, when you are unable to see the future..
Depression is when you feel weak, embarrassed, on the verge on tears if not already crying because you are unable to do what you used to and you have no idea how to fix it.
Depression is those mornings when you ask yourself why am I doing this (life) again..
Depression is when you get irritated over the littlest things so you take your problems out on others.
Depression is when your smile covers everything..
Depression is those moments when you can't even speak because you are so overwhelmed so you just go into the dark room and go back to sleep.
Depression is the relationships that are ruined because you isolate yourself so bad you just can't talk anymore.
Depression is the days when you just throw anything on and head out the door..
Depression is the days you can't eat and the days you eat everything in your sight.
Depression is the hurt that you face when someone says "Just be happy"
Depression is the envy you have when you see people do a lot and you can hardly get out the bed to clean.
Depression is the instigator between yourself and yourself. It makes you the worst enemy of yourself.
Depression is the nights you just want to die. You stare at the pills for so long. You feel like you can't handle life anymore.
Depression hurts but why do we have to?